what we do for life.....

life is a four letter word just like everything else. i can be great at times, can suck at times. but in the end you know you won't get out alive.

I have lived my life in seval different stages. This current stage of my life has made me feel more alive than any of the previous. I have lived a many stages, and many types of lives, one that where i creatd a world of lies only to find that the truth is only what everyone else precieves it to be. and i have been the createer of a world where i made everyone need me for one reason or another, but in the end actually being myself is the real feeling that i love. I have achieved all the goals that i have set for my self for my life sans one. i am working my life to the way i want it to be, i am involved in the charities and campigns that i want to be in and i am having the time of my life. I work a job that i love, and on the path to taking over the monterey peninsula. Soon i will complete my law school education, and i will have to find some new goals. that is the problem that i am seeing right now. I don't have any new goals. i don't have any in sight. I really don't have direction anymore.

I am a failing fash light in a hallway. i have a general direction on where i am going, but i am not sure where i am, or really what is in store for me. that not only scares me but it makes me hella happy. i know that i will never fail in life. i don't let myself even believe for a second that failure is an option to me. so i will wonder, looking for something to attach myself to, looking for direction, but not ever lending myself to who i used to be.

This is the time for me to shine, i no longer need a guide in the form of anything for i will shine for me and me alone. I can do this, i don't need direction i will find my way on my own. This is what i do. I am The Chris, and as i feel rushed to finish this blog....

i will continue this much much much later......just remember that you don't need to have a light in the dark hall, you are the light shine on your own and all will be fine.

THIS ABOVE ALL TO THINE OWN SELF BE TRUE.