#9: politics politics politics....

we are close to the end of the election. we are kicking into gear and now it seems that the burden of these elections fall on us few.. 3 of us. 3 people who have lives, who have wives who have other jobs are now carrying the burden of this election.  it is up to us... we succeed and we all won..but if we lose, it is us 3 or failed... The election more difficlut than it could be but nothing worth doing is easy.

i enjoyed doing seminary this morning. the kids are starting to warm up and Megan is so knowledgeable of the scriptures and so willing to teach. this calling will be very rewarding.

megan is a great woman...my back is starting to get better so we will be able to start being us again. she has been so paitent with me it is awesome.

tomorrow i have the lesson for seminary i am nervous cause i have never taught the bible before, but looking forward to being able to get the chance to teach..

alrigh off to end the day.. night y'all

8: first day of seminary

megan was great.. i enjoyed it.... i think that Megan wants to down play my pre conversion life... and i think that it is part of the why i came to the gospel.  but we will cross that bridge when i come to it. for right no wi am jjust chillin and doing my thing.

i finished my first lession tonight and i think it will be quite good. i love to teach, so it should be fun.

i had a wonderful time at work today...debates and hiring people and getting down to the streach all things considered it was good times....

facebook is drama central for people after a debate but that is normal for the life we live... people are sooooooo strong behind a key board..but so weak in their face..

as is life...time to hit the sack and get ready for the next day.. only 14 days until election...

#7: The missionary went home.....

my journey through the LDS church as started by Clint. But the education of the gospel was brought along by 2 young men. 2 missionaries called of God and prepared to serve.  These two men are Elder Mckenzie and Elder Hastings.

i met elder Hastings before Mckenzie (or Mac as we lovingly know him).  Mac has already returned home from his mission and we have stayed in contact checking up on each other and making sure each one is doing ok.

Hastings..... what can i say about this guy. He started his mission the same time i started mine. My mission was to become a better person, his the same... we have both found the joy in the gospel, me learning, living, and loving it. him teaching it saving people's souls. showing them a brighter day.

This man has transformed my life. he is the one who i felt comfortable with to be able to open up to the gospel for. I am truly greatfull for all that he has done in my life. i feel closer to this man then a lot of peopel in my life. I can't wait for him to be back home and we can visit more often.

one thing as i sit back and remember this night is that he is the same person i met 2 years ago. he has grown as a man, but the spirit is still with him, the knowledge is still with him and i am honored to know him.

i look forward to a long friendship with this man...and excited for all the good his has caused in people's lives..

#7: one week done... getting in the groove

so i have journeled for 7 days straight. kinda the biggest streak i have ever done and i am still working on it.

today i got up early and hurt very much bad!!! my back was killing me, my leg was killing me and i could barely walk. i took a ton of advil and started my day.  Megan and i decided i would sleep on the cot becuase that is firmer than our bed. so we shall see how well that works out.

I went to work, and got off early. it was nice cause then megan and i got to see a movie together. I love spending as much time as i can with her. it is difficult now with my schedule, but i am trying my hardest.

we ended the night at Tristen and Lethie's house. THEY RULE. we really like them. we have a ton of fun when we are with them and play games and shoot the bull. We did miss out on Clint and Amanda's announcement of new baby (it is a boy), but we had plans already and not one to break those plans.  

it is awesome the life we have. i love my wife very much.  i am so greatfull that we found each other and in days of frustration and pain i know that we can count on each other... even if we are mad at each other... i love her....

cheers to the end of the night... tomorrow is going to be busy with church and seminary planning and OH MY!!!!!!!

#6: an easier day, and day with my wife

friday was an easy day for me. i was able to get up without too much pain and go to seminary.  we did scripture races which was a ton of fun. I enjoy going to seminary. i enjoy learning about the gospel in a more indepth way.

i was talking a few weeks back about how i want to go back to school and i miss studying. The lord has come through i am in scripture college right now. I love how Heavenly Father answers our prayers.

It was a slow day at both jobs and i was off work by 4 yesterday.. but i was asleep by 730.  giggle. Megan and i were watching the giants game and i just passed out. it was needed up i was up by 6 am so i see my body is getting on track for waking up early and i am pleased about that.

I have been hesitant about writing about my back issues, but if i want to keep an accurate record of what is going on i need to address this here. I have had chronic back problems this past year. it has been rough and this is the worst of it. I have done internet research and find that i have some disc problems, but until megan and i can get health insurance i can't do anything about it.  would be nice if obamacare kicked in i would be able to go a low cost, but right now that isn't an option.  so i will get health insurance and go from there. we will get through this..

lets get this weekend started...politics and wife time... lets do this...

#5: slept late and got stuff done

Today i woke up early and my back was killing me. i could not sit through seminary without hurting..but things are almost getting better.

i got back from seminary and slept for 4.5 hours...waking up back at 1130 just in time to head over to the dems office to get some work done. we are getting down to crunch time. We need to get the vote out, we need to make sure our guys are getting elected.

i have been faced with a lot of things lately. one of the big things is what i will be doing after bar results.  i think that politics is the way to go. the job i want, the career for me. this is what i want to do. I have Plasha and Jimmy on my side. with that i think i will be able to pull myself into this career and a great place to start.

Once things into place we will be in a better place to make the decision.

Megan is wonderful, she asked me tonight to mention that she pretty.  She is. i love my wife. today is 2 months that we have been married.  She is awesome i am so lucky to have her with me. She is truly the best part of my life.

Seminary tomorrow...and i need to get things going on my end. I need to study the scriptures and make sure that i am ready to keep things going.

until next time..this is my journal, it may not be much but it is a daily reminder that I need for when i write my life out....

#4: Good day of politics great night of scriptures

Today we had a very chill political day. event out at the college and some good forums. The republicans hired some very nice looking ladies to campaign for them and it didn't really work.

The dems represented very well. We talk to some potential voters making sure that they got the vote out. There were some students who had NO idea that what they were talking about. that is normal.

we went to seminary training and we are getting ready to take on the class. this is going to be difficult but it will be awesome as well.

i am trying to write everyday... but this is hard...soon after the elections ill have more time, until then.. short posts of being positive...

Journal entry #3: the days are getting longer

Today was our first day in seminary. We observed the class and got to see how things went. Overall it was a great experience. we were able to talk to Megan the other seminary teacher and she gave some great ideas.

I think it might be difficult to teach with my Megan, but i am sure we will be albe to work through it. I am going to have to start getting up earlier and getting breakfast ready for us (like tomorrow) so that way we are fuel for class.

Megan does so much for me, I work from 9 am to 10 or 11 some nights and she is here with me. She loves me and I am so greatfull for these things. We may not always agree on everything, but we love each other and we are in this for eternity.  I come home most nights, not even being able to talk to her because she is so asleep, but i am trying to get things done. We have a wonderful marriage, but i need to do more things. I need to help clean more and do more laundry... i will get up an hour earlier tomorrow and get those things done.

I talk to a candidate today, i want to work in his office. I need to work in his office. I can make a good salary and be able to provide for a small family, which will give me the springboard to be able to run for politics myself. I think this will be a great place for me. Plus i will have benefits and be still able to help seth and other attorneys on research projects.  I just don't feel that the law is where i need to be right now. i am not sure... maybe in a few years things will be different, but right now.. i just want to do something worth it.and i don't think that the law is it.  I am sure i will revisit these things as i get past the election and we can go from there.

this might again be as in 2010 where i got so emersed in politics that i didn't see anything else...

we shall see.. off to bed to rest..to be strong...

Journal Entry #2: The day that won't end...

day two of journal writing... i am trying really hard to do this.

this morning i woke up at 5 am to head up to hayward ca to file some order for the law office.  Megan came with me, and though i enjoy her company.. i am at work and i wanted to operate a certain way. She was awesome to come, but i resented her coming for a minute. i got over it and realized that i just didn't like the fact that we both got up at 5 but she was sleeping on the drive over...and i was driving.

we talked about it, about our road trips, about what we see as important in road trip all that jazz..

i will talk more about it in a later post, right now it is late..i am tired but i am at peace becuase we were able to talk through it all.

I know i married the right woman and i am glad i have a partner through this all.


we also had dinner with Tristen and Leafy... they rule..so much laughter...so so much laughter...

great day but now it must end because we have seminary tomorrow.

Journal Entry #1: it has been a while....

Today is October 14 2012, my wife. yes i said it my wife Megan, gave a talk in church today about journaling.... so here i am writing down what the day has and what i feel.  let me get out information about the weekend and some family history updates, and then i will explain what has happened since i was baptized into the Church and changed my entire life.....


This weekend marked a huge event for work. We were passing out 30,000 door hangers to get out the vote for obama. We need him to be reelected. This is difficult for me because i live my life for the democrats. I believe in the mission of the party, i believe that this party is best inline with the gospel and in the end i love this party. Megan is a republican and i feel that it eats her up inside that i root for the dems. She says being a republican is part of her ethos and that scares me because she just tied political party on the same level of the gospel.  but that with time i am sure we will find a middle ground.

This weekend also marked us getting our new calling. we will start teaching seminary coming up in a week. this is going to be reward and difficult at the same time. i love to teach. i love to mold young minds and i look forward to this opportunity to learn the gospel better and have some scripture mastery.

This weekend laurel came to town. she has been a good friend of mine for years, but we have fallen away since her move to georgia and me just being busy. i know excuses, but still she is a good friend and i am glad to have her here. I fear that some of the topics offend megan due to their nature of sex, or alcohol, or my life before the gospel, but again i think that exposure will help calm the weird feelings and bring about acceptance.

we end this weekend with a great time at church and a wonder dinner with friends, new board games and just a great outlook on life. Also with journaling. Megan gave a wonderful talk in church about importance of journaling, so i am going to make the attempt and get it done.

so here we are... where do we catch up..i left off with having a great talk with my mom.

since that time (late may 2011) i have done the following things with regards to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.

  I have been baptized
  I have been called to serve in the Elders Quroum
  I have been given the Melkeldizk Prisesthood
  I have been endowed and entered the holy temple
  I have been sealed to a wonderful woman for time and all eternity
  I have been blessed with a wonderful life that i could not have dreamt of before

While doing all of these great things, i have found something about myself that i knew what there, but just under a bunch of layers. i have found the the best me possible. don't get me wrong i am getting better by the day, but i have started (bulid my house on a rock one could say) a foundation of greatness that can only grow from here.

I have intergrated my wonderful non-member friends into my life as being a member. i am the same person they remember just better. becuase it wasn't the booze, the sex, the women, the swearing that made me a good guy, it was just me that made me the good person.

they see that, and those nonmber friends who dn't see tht, were never my friends to begin with. but during this time i have made the hard decisions. the walk away from people who are good at heart and needed me, but they were not good for me. i had to step away from those relationships that sucked on my life, and did not help the creation of stronger me, the relationships that always hold you down. Where people don't want to help themselves, but rather want others to carry them. but i have grown.. i have been a better man..

i will leave with this. i will try and update everyday.. i have a lot to explain over the past year and i have days to do it... lets see if i can keep this going.

cheers.