what is the right thing to do

i am stuck in between a rock and a hard place.

what is right to do. do we do the right thing for everyone or just people we like. do you take it upon ourselves to do what is right when people say stay away. what do we do?

what do i do. do i do what i know is right and beytray a trust that has been there most of my life. or do i stay slient t

i am not a miracle worker, i am a fucking janitor

i do clean up.  that is all i do....all i do is clean up everyone else messes.  I don't know if i have a mess to clean up or what i did to pull this detail, but i am stuck here cleaning up for every mess, sacrificing parts of who i have become to pull the detail that i don't want to do.  I deal with x wives, x girls, current wives, current girls, old friends and new friends. I make sure the tide flows with ease.  

i am tired of it. i am tired of trying to balance my life with everyone else. i am the throw away guy, i have made a niche for myself, but in the end i will be discarded along with all the other trash when my time is done.

i guess i am tired of batting clean-up. I have tried to shine on my own and get slapped down with everyone else's bullshit.  

today was teh second day that i had to take off to play clean up for my friends. i haven't recieved a thanks, i haven't been told i owe you one, it has come off like it is my fucking job to do this. Like I am the one who SHOULD do this.  

i am just tired of it.

fuck this.....i am just going to run away....