emotional currency........

we all deal in it... weather we guilt people into doing what we want, or sharing in the love of a happy moment. we deal with emotional currency, we use it the good and the bad. 

i am not saying that i haven't done the good and the bad..i have manipulated people the best way possible, i have used and abuse the emotions of people in my life. i have also lived in the glory of all the moments of all the people i have ever loved.  

we all have, i believe that is human nature we use people not always in a bad way. we use people and they use us.  that is what we do.

but at what point do we use each other too much.

people don't like being told what people see them as. we don't like to be told what we really are. i know that i am an asshole, i accept it sometimes and push it off as a source of pride, but in truth i don't like being an asshole, but i also don't like being quiet, i don't like people abusing the life that they are granted.  

i know that they has been a theme in my writing and i know what the source of it is.  i understand that you guys are tired of reading this shit, i just need to be done with it. and with her.

fuck it...time to move on my own...

later dear readers