Betrayal

oh i invited you into my house, introduced you to my friends, showed you my family. brought you in when no one would take you. treated you like a brother, made a world for you and this is how you repay my loyalty. You starting dating my x who i am still living with and tell me that want my permission and want me not to be mad.

oscar wilde said "true friends stab you in the front" and this is true for you. i have shown you unequivial loyalty and opened my whole world to you. You know how i feel and you know that this bothers me, but yet that doesn't matter to you and your crush.

Of all the things i have done to make you feel at home, all the things i have safcried so you could live here, all the bullshit that i went through to give you a home and this is how you repay me. This is how you treat a loyal friend, and this is how you find your way in life. Of course you will want to be with her, she is all you see, she is your world. You refuse to go out and see the world, you refuse to go out and meet people, you are too afaird to be a man and so you wimper into something that is easy.

it must be nice not having to go out and get things on your own and have everything handed to you. it must be nice to have not to have to be in the world have a guaranteed job and everything at your finger tip. Yes i am jealous, yes i do wish i had it as easy at you, but i don't. I have to work at everything that i do, i have with toil over every dollar and i have to make every opportunity.

I don't get a bye, i get to work. it is people like you that keep people like me motivated to make life worth something. So thank you, thank you for giving me the motivation to make sure that they system that has made you lazy and taught you that loyalty is just another word in scrabble will not continue to future generations. The haves will come down and i will bring you down.

Living here with you and her has just reminded me that people like you too don't want friendship, you want minions. you don' t want respect you want fear. you don't want loyalty you want obedience. and i have none of those for you. I am done being your "friend" and having you shit on me. In your own words you have said you feel like shit. If you weren't doing the wrong thing you wouldn't feel like shit.

This was the last straw. you have chosen you side and it is not with me, you were once a friend, now you are on the way side. I have given you loyalty and you have returned betrayal. So now i hope that one day you will wake up and realize that everything that you once thought i was is now no more. Our friendship died this day. for no real friend would be doing what you are doing.

this is my manifesto of rejection from a friendship that meant more to me than to you. In the end i hope you find peace, for right now you don't know what you have lost, but one day when you realize what has happened you will be standing alone wishing for my help, but not receiving it.